Don't ask me why... Due to unforeseen circumstances... This blog is declared dead... This 51st post shall be the las and final post.. Actually wanted to delete off ALL my previous posts.. But then, i tot the better of it.. Thanks for the support people.. Appreciated it...

Signing off..

Yesterday, just had a talk with my gf... She said I was uptight.. and very easily gan jiong.. Wad in the world happened? I tot i was always the one to tell people to relax.. espescially my mum.. Now, regina is telling me the things i tell my mum.. Is this trait hereditary?? Now, it seemed that the me now is no longer the me in the past.. From an optimistic, jovial and happy go lucky (How i described myself when i first started out my friendster account) to now, I find myself uptight, pessimistic and melancholic.. A hundred an eighty degrees change... The crux being, i dunno when was the actual turning point in my life.. And worse still, i din notice this change at all until regina pointed it out to me.. And by back-tracking my life, i realised that during yr 1 sem 1 i was still the 'old' me.. but some where after that, i realised the change was already completed and damage done..

Last nite, spoke to my god-sis Stephanie about this issue... I call it the mid-life crisis and she started to burst into laughter.. Ok, probably i exaggerated things a bit.. It's not yet a mid life crisis.. but its similar alright! Mid life crisis is when married man lose track of who they are after they spent a long long time working and they lose their self identity.. Now, looking at the 'me' in the past and the 'me' now, i really dunno who've I actually became... Worse still, regina pointed out that over the couple of yrs i've already been like that --> I've already gotten used to this new 'me' sub-consciously.. But den, getting used doesn't mean knowing, so.. Now that i'm actually aware of this, I feel like a stranger to myself.. I really dunno wad the hells going on liao... So tired... So very very tired.. Everything seemed to be moving so fast.. really cant catch up anymore...

Just wanna lie down and rest a good rest... Get into a deep sleep.. a deep deep sleep.. So deep that i'll not wake up so soon.. wad's not so soon? one might ask.. Hmmm... Forever? Eternity? That's how I wish i can see time now... time slowing down from the fast pace that i'm experiencing..

Signing off....

My American Idol..

Presenting to you people, Taylor Hicks - Do I make you proud



Lyrics
I've never been the one to raise my hand
that was not me and now that's who I am
because of you I am standing tall
My heart is full of endless gratitude
You were the one The one to guide me through
Now I can see And I believe
It's only just beginning

This is what we dreamed about
but my only question with me now
do I make you proud
stronger then I've ever been now

Do I make you proud
Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved

This is what we dreamed about
but my only question with me now
do I make your proud
(2x)

Stronger than I've ever been

Do I make you proud?
Do I make you proud?

With respects to my previous posting about my results outlook and semester reflection, This post will be dedicated to my released results..

IT1002
So it seems... The S/U option still managed to save my ass-crack from the imending doom of blanking out during the finals.. Managed to scraped an S, tho I'll never will and never want to noe wad was my actual grades.. Phew! 1st hurdle crossed..

LSM 2202
Ok, let's face it.. CA1 I got the mean score, CA2 I got below the mean score.. so even if I get a better score for my miniproject, it's just gonna end up balancing everything back to the mean again.. So I guess getting a B was sort of expected I guess.. Haiz... dilemma.. Loved this module, but yet only scored a B... Pathetic..

LSM 3214
A bit disappointed when I saw the results... A- was what I got.. Put in a bit of an extra effort for this module, thinking tat I could actually scored an A for this to pull up my CAP slightly a bit more... Haiz.. Guess this is my life... no matter how hard I work, I guess A- is the max i'll go.. reminds me of my sec sch days where my form teacher (an indian from culcutta) used to say:" yoong hen (Yong Han).. still nol A varn (one)..." Yes.. in sec sch days, I NV got an A1 before.. even my 'O' levels, was entirely decorated by A2s.. Haiz.. but then, I shouldn't have aimed too high too i guess.. As my CA1 was only the mean score, not a big cut enuff to get the A.. 认命吧..

LSM 2104
This module gave me the most relief... Hmmmm... After the paper, I felt like i was hanging on a 1000 foot death cliff with both hands.. when suddenly my balls started ti itch.. There's nothing i could do about it and if I actually went to scratch it, I'll lose my grip and fall to my death.. Now.. I can finally give my balls a good scratch.. I wasn't expecting myself to get a B for this module.. But still I managed to scrape a B and further more, I whacked this module during the module evaluation.. Revenge can be so sweet sometimes, no? My fren told me abt a lvl 2000 bioinfomatics module.. She din have the chance to finish talking and I started to unleash my wraith on her...

LSM 2103
This module ar... Haiz... The finals wasn't very well done by me.. almost din finish the paper some more... Well, felt that could have done better if i put in a bit more effort to memorise my facts.. but den which paper isn't filled with regrets? I'm no prodigy kid who only can get A and can't even to afford to get a B for exams... I'll be glad if the vice dean dun invite me into the office for a cuppa coffee.. Grade? A-.. Haiz.. no point lamenting now.. all that's left for me to do is to work hard next sem.. If my fire's still burning..

Signing off..

Okkkkaaaayyy.... Mina san (Everyone) If you guys seen my MSN nick recently, you would have know that I recently declared myself to be a HG (Hard Gay) Fan.. Okaayyyyyyy... Say! There's one episode on which HG went to TOMY to get a KUROHI- (Black) GAY KIKI IPPATTSU made right? The jumping pirate... I got SO fascinated by it that I immediately went to find and order it online!! And guess wad?? SAY! HG's in the house on 24 May 2006!! He came in a well packed box too!!


The box in which HG was lying in...

After which, I tore open the box and extraxted HG from it...


Okkkaaayyyy!!!

If you guys saw the video before, you would have guess that it's not a very big thing.. But I got a shock wen I saw the toy.. It's actually pretty beeg sia!!!


SAY!


SAY SAY!


SAY SAY SAY!!

Den I happily took out every part there was inside the box and started working on hard gay!!


The 'raw' materials...

Den, I started working on HG while my brother was there snapping away...


Work work...


Ho Hum...

And soon, after awhile, HG is ready!!


DONE!!!


OKAY!

After putting in 2x Energizer AAA batteries, HG was ready to rawk!! *shakes groin*


HARD GAY DESU!!

All together, there's ard 4-5 different sounds in the toy wen u stick in the knife... Even wen u on the toy, it'll go 'OKAY!'... Damn farnie.. Haha.. well den, another crap item into my collection!! lol!

Signing off...

I'm sorry people... I'm a failure... I really dunno wad to blog about... Think i'll just go and bang my head on the wall.. Sayonara...

Signing off..

It's been a month plus since I last blogged.. And now that I'm blogging, it definately isn't a good thing.. and It's DEFINATELY gonna be a LONG entry.. My current semester is almost over, and I'm reflecting on wad I've done for this sem... I still got one more paper tho, but it's gonna be on next wed.. And I'm gonna mug my way thru this entire week! But so far, here's the breakdown:

IT1002
Got tricked into thinking that it ain't gonna be too hard, since its a Level 1000 module. Only attended tutorial once, attended almost all labs. Labs were ok since i got TONS of time to prepare.. CA was a complete disaster tho i managed to scraped a meagre pass. Left exam hall 15 mins earlier, experiencing a total blank out. But since I S/U this module, hopefully things ain't gonna be too bad. If I DO get a U for this.. I only got one thing to say.. KNNBCCB!! It was a total mistake to choose this module.

Score breakdown:

1. Lab (20%): 19.4
2. CA (20%): 12.2
3. Finals (60%): Estimated (25-30)
Doom rating: 3/5

LSM2202
From the start, I already planned to take this module since I have a greater affinity for genetics than biochemistry. The whole practical shit was quite enjoyable I must say, thanks to my bench mates and my TA, Fuling.. But both CAs proved otherwise would be a good module choice. First CA got the mean score, 2nd CA got BELOW the mean... Kaoz.. I enjoyed this module, but I don't think I'm gonna enjoy the results...

Score breakdown:

1. 6 Lab reports with MISERABLE weightage (10%): 8.6
2. CA1 (30%): 21
3. CA2 (30%): 18
4. Miniproject (30%): Estimated (15-20)
Doom Rating: 3.5/5

LSM3214
The first Level 3000 module I attempted in my NUS life so far. Would have taken this module sooner or later, since I'm gonna major in this area during year 3 I guess.. Quite a stressful module as I'm competing with all the yr 3 students but apparently, all the yr 3 students were slacking it out! Except for CA1, the yr 2s basically trounced them good! A lot of things to memorise.. But it was ok.. Managed to pull thru I guess..

Score breakdown:
1. CA1 (20%): 15
2. CA2 (15%): 9.3 (10.35 was highest here, EVERYONE got slaughtered by Wong CT)
3. Assignment (15%): 11
4. Finals (50%): Estimated (37-40)
Doom rating: 0.5/5

LSM2104
Bioinformatics.. One of the most Fei4 modules I've ever taken.. I gave this module the worst feedback I've ever given to ANY modules in NUS.. And probably because of that, Kharma is hitting back on me.. I was finally enlightened on what the word 'DOOM' actually embodies.. Out of 25 MCQs, I'm only confident of a miserable 7 questions.. Basically crapped my way thru the essay too.. Totally gone fucked for this module... Why did they had to make it mandatory?? If it wasn't mandatory, I would NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, have taken it.. When I finished the paper, I was TOTALLY and UTTERLY stunned.. I could literally see stars...

Score breakdown:

1. Presentation (10%): Estimated (6-7)
2. Miniproject (25%): Estimated (19-20)
3. Lab attendance (5%): 5!! (I'm a sad case rite?)
4. CA (15%): 10.5
5. Finals (45%): Estimated (20)
Doom rating: 6/5 (Yes.. I'm not joking, I just had the paper TODAY, and I screwed it up)

LSM2103
Molecular cell biology.. Hosted by our beloved Prof TS Teo.. Was an ok module, A LOT of things to remember.. Dunno why scientists in the past wanna get a nobel prize and make themselves famous by researching things like apoptosis (cell death) and mitosis (cell division)... All they are doing is making life difficult for us! Why can't they accept the fact that cells either DIE OR REPLICATE, end of story.. Must they go on and ask HOW o WHY.. Sheesh... The things people do for a nobel prize... But this module resembles LSM2101, Cell Metabolism and so, the feeling is like I've been thru it once..

Score breakdown:
1. CA1 (20%): 16.8
2. CA2 (20%): 16.8
3. Finals: (60%): Mugging in progress
Doom rating: rating to be advised

Well, from the above breakdown, it seem like I can almost see my grades for the sem liao.. Things look particularly bleak for my CAP... Looks like my CAP's gonna stay at sub-4.0 for good.. If this goes on, I think I wun be doing honours liao.. Sheesh... Guess all that's left for me to do is to mug hard for LSM2103 and try to salvage the situation (Not that it'll do MUCH good).. This is gonna be a long LONG week...

Signing off...